alone again

I don't want to be one of those people that are constantly in a relationship. It doesn't matter if I tell myself that I need to be single, need to be alone...I still put myself in situations or become better friends with certain people that I know could be prospect boyfriends, why do I do that? A boyfriend is the last thing that I am thinking about, and is definately the very last thing I have time for, or the patience for. For whatever reason I feel as though I should be close to someone...yet I don't want a boyfriend. I don't know how to distinguish those feelings I guess. This journal is pointless....goodnight.