Life is funny. It just is. I don't know how to fully explain it really, but God definitely acts in mysterious ways. I guess you could say that I always knew that, and sometimes experienced it, but how I quickly forget. Take my relationships and school for example. Although I am almost done with school, I sit back and look back on everything and realize how everything has come together so perfectly. It wasn't necessarily the best or easiest way, but look how everything turned out! I honestly believe that if I didn't go through the rough times, I might now have ever learned from my experiences and mistakes, and then I wouldn't be here. I am so happy and motivated (as much as possible considering my senior-itis) with where I am in my life right now, that I can't think of any reason not to be happy.
I lost my job yesterday, and yes it was not a good way to go out, but you know what? I hated that job and it gave me so much stress anyway, I'm probably better without it. Besides who wouldn't want to work at a convenience store where the toothless man calls you "purdy"! It doesn't get any better then that.
My true friends and closer then ever before. I love that, and I love my friends! No matter that most of my friends are making life plans, getting into serious relationships, going after their career, or going to grad school, or even already in a good career, it makes me happy to know that each and everyone of them really truly do care about me in every sense.
God is great. Beer is Good. And people are crazy....and I'm just loving it.
Oh and on top of that I'm closer then I have ever been to having ABs...sooo ready to run this 1/2 marathon can't wait!!
so where does that leave me? I'm graduating in June...I have a couple choices on the table and for once I think I'm going to lean back and take my time...see what God tells my heart what to do.
1. Move back to Cbus to be closer to my family...besides I'm going to be an auntie X 6 in May :)
2. Stay in Cinci because I absolutely love it here. I can always visit Cbus on the weekends :)
3. Move. Wherever the wind takes me...then again I have the rest of my life for that!
soooo as a conclusion. I'm happy. happy happy happy. And I only have God, and my bestest friends and fam to thank for that :)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Please Pray for the Soldiers and their families!
Army officer opens fire at Ford Hood, killing 12so basically this Army officer opened fire today at 1:30pm with 2 handguns and killed 12 people and wounded 31. Is this crazy or what? I just want to put this out there and let everyone aware of the situation so that people can pray for the soldiers and their families! So many people were touched by this tragedy and it's in God's hands now.
http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5ihGepAkECGoDagETVBMpPb3w7Y3gD9BPM5BG0
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
phew...i need a drink
I honestly don't know what I'm even going to write about right now. I'm just going to go with the flow. I've had one of those days where I wish I had permanent amnesia and would drive til I ended up on the West coast thinking I was 25, had a PhD, and my name was Autumn Brooks or something pretty awesome. Ahhh I just want out of these situations that I don't even know how I get here in the first place. I just wake up and WHAM...right in the face....
2 jobs
5 classes
no money....too many bills
mom on my back about finding an apartment and new job
ex boyfriend on my back who I'm trying to convince is over, but trying to hurt him as least as possible
potential b/f that I don't wanna scare away, but don't wanna jump into anything with either
yeah yeah i know i should focus on the good things in life...which i do. i actually think that i'm happier now with who i am than i have been my whole entire college life. I know what I want for the most part, and I'm going after it. I have goals and standards and i'm sticking to it and going after it. Then why oh why does everything have to come crumbling down at once!?!
I have so much to be thankful for, especially now. Some of the greatest friends ever, always there for me and pretty darn understanding.
well thats all for now. Thank God that he put people here on earth for me so I can get through all of this shit i have to go through for what ever reasons.
2 jobs
5 classes
no money....too many bills
mom on my back about finding an apartment and new job
ex boyfriend on my back who I'm trying to convince is over, but trying to hurt him as least as possible
potential b/f that I don't wanna scare away, but don't wanna jump into anything with either
yeah yeah i know i should focus on the good things in life...which i do. i actually think that i'm happier now with who i am than i have been my whole entire college life. I know what I want for the most part, and I'm going after it. I have goals and standards and i'm sticking to it and going after it. Then why oh why does everything have to come crumbling down at once!?!
I have so much to be thankful for, especially now. Some of the greatest friends ever, always there for me and pretty darn understanding.
well thats all for now. Thank God that he put people here on earth for me so I can get through all of this shit i have to go through for what ever reasons.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Values and Lifestyle
So for my marketing class, we had to take a VALS test, or Value and Lifestyle Survery. My professor thought that it would help us figure out what segments different people fit into...although I think that it is somewhat irrelevant to Marketing, it was pretty interesting. The website if you're interested: www.sric-bi.com/vals (Click on “VALS Survey”)
My VALS Survey
My Primary VALS type is Experiencer. The Primary VALS type represents dominant approach to life. Experiencers are motivated by self-expression. As young, enthusiastic, and impulsive consumers, Experiencers quickly become enthusiastic about new possibilities but are equally quick to cool. They seek variety and excitement, savoring the new, the offbeat, and the risky. Their energy finds an outlet in exercise, sports, outdoor recreation, and social activities. Experiences are avid consumers and spend a comparatively high proportion of their income on fashion, entertainment, and socializing. Their purchases reflect the emphasis they place on looking good and having “cool” stuff.
The Secondary classification represents a particular emphasis you give to your primary approach. My secondary VALS type is Innovator. Innovators are successful, sophisticated, take-charge people with high self-esteem. Because they have such abundant resources, they exhibit all three primary motivations in varying degrees. They are change leaders and are the most receptive to new ideas and technologies. Innovators are very active consumers, and their purchases reflect tastes for upscale, niche products and services. Image is important to innovators, not as evidence of status or power, bus as an expression of their taste, independence, and personality. Innovators are among the established and emerging leaders in business and government, yet they continue to seek challenges. Their lives are characterized by variety. Their possessions and recreation reflect a cultivated taste for finer things in life.
My VALS Survey
My Primary VALS type is Experiencer. The Primary VALS type represents dominant approach to life. Experiencers are motivated by self-expression. As young, enthusiastic, and impulsive consumers, Experiencers quickly become enthusiastic about new possibilities but are equally quick to cool. They seek variety and excitement, savoring the new, the offbeat, and the risky. Their energy finds an outlet in exercise, sports, outdoor recreation, and social activities. Experiences are avid consumers and spend a comparatively high proportion of their income on fashion, entertainment, and socializing. Their purchases reflect the emphasis they place on looking good and having “cool” stuff.
The Secondary classification represents a particular emphasis you give to your primary approach. My secondary VALS type is Innovator. Innovators are successful, sophisticated, take-charge people with high self-esteem. Because they have such abundant resources, they exhibit all three primary motivations in varying degrees. They are change leaders and are the most receptive to new ideas and technologies. Innovators are very active consumers, and their purchases reflect tastes for upscale, niche products and services. Image is important to innovators, not as evidence of status or power, bus as an expression of their taste, independence, and personality. Innovators are among the established and emerging leaders in business and government, yet they continue to seek challenges. Their lives are characterized by variety. Their possessions and recreation reflect a cultivated taste for finer things in life.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Fix You
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just watch and learn Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
lately
so lately i've been so stressed, so busy that I really honestly don't remember to breath at times. I know i do it to myself. I like to stay busy, especially when i'm trying to avoid things. but busy and stressed are not always the same things. The staying busy part was intentional, having multiple jobs, doing homework and studying and driving around. but the being broke, maybe having to sue my past landlord, dealing with an ex that frickin threatened me tonight...these are not things that i asked for. things that not only do i not need, i don't know if i can handle them right now. I literally feel pathetic lately. I try so so hard at so many things. and so many things come crashing down on me. Now that i'm single, i know that i have to do this alone. but that's what friends are suppose to be for right? to be there for each other? Don't get me wrong i have some amazing friends...but what do you do when you're all alone crying in the middle of the day because you don't feel like you can take it anymore. only to wipe those tears away and take a deep breath because you know you have to leave for work.
or what if...its late at night and you try to go have fun, but it crumbles right from underneath you. you try to call someone, you try to reach out...but there is nobody there.
what then? so here i am, back to where i get so often. so scared to trust others. so scared to actually take down my walls to trust others to be there for me. especially now when i am no longer with the person that was there for me the last four years. Ya i know, i could turn to God, but he knows that i need someone there physically...someone to hug, someone to tell me it's going to be okay...
people who have that are so fortunate and take that for granted at times i think. unfortunately the people in my life that i think would take the time out of their busy schedule to listen to me...i haven't even known them that long. I hate crying in front of people i know so well, including my own mother, so why would i in front of someone i barely knew??
does anyone else run into this? just wondering. I used to think that something was wrong with me. some reason why i feel like nobody is ever there for me...but i've come to the conclusion that its a series of unfortunate events. I am usually a very strong person. Very happy, motivated, mostly, joyous and encouraging person. not lately. Lately I need someone to be that for me.
what do ya do?!
or what if...its late at night and you try to go have fun, but it crumbles right from underneath you. you try to call someone, you try to reach out...but there is nobody there.
what then? so here i am, back to where i get so often. so scared to trust others. so scared to actually take down my walls to trust others to be there for me. especially now when i am no longer with the person that was there for me the last four years. Ya i know, i could turn to God, but he knows that i need someone there physically...someone to hug, someone to tell me it's going to be okay...
people who have that are so fortunate and take that for granted at times i think. unfortunately the people in my life that i think would take the time out of their busy schedule to listen to me...i haven't even known them that long. I hate crying in front of people i know so well, including my own mother, so why would i in front of someone i barely knew??
does anyone else run into this? just wondering. I used to think that something was wrong with me. some reason why i feel like nobody is ever there for me...but i've come to the conclusion that its a series of unfortunate events. I am usually a very strong person. Very happy, motivated, mostly, joyous and encouraging person. not lately. Lately I need someone to be that for me.
what do ya do?!
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Friends and Family
Friends and family are probably the best things in life. Without them, life would be so much harder than it already is. I don't want to take them for granted, and I hope I never do.
It kind of reminds me of the song, Bless the Broken Road by Rascal Flatts
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two, Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true, That God blessed the broken roadThat led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Except I would change a couple of the worlds to apply to my friends. Because a lot of my friends that have been in my shoes or have not, have been there for me. And I appreciate it, very much.
So Thank you, You know who you are.
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