I've Been Waiting My Whole Life

The particular moment of Graduating from College isn't exactly the moment I've been waiting my whole life for, but it's the first day of the moments I've been waiting for. Ever since I was little I used to daydream, yes about my wedding day, but mostly just about living. About making big decisions, life changing decisions, making mistakes, and learning from them. Getting a new job, starting my own business, getting married, opening my shop, having kids, moving, seeing the world....I have always dreamed in adult form for as long as I can remember, and with graduation being only 12 weeks away, I can't decide if I'm terrified, or so ecstatic I can hardly take it. I know, I know. Everyone keeps telling me to take my time and enjoy my time in school while I have it because then comes the real world. You know what? Bring it on real world. There is so much I want to conquer, so much I want to tackle that I don't think I'll be missing much from the college world except for naps and the relationships I made. Working, bills, debt, huge mistakes, credit card debt, and starving due to lack of food and money...been there done that. When i'm working full-time, what could possibly be worse then that? I have goals, aspirations, and ambitions that I can't start working on until this 12 weeks is over. BUT, I'm going to try my hardest to enjoy it while I can. Soak up the sun and crank it out because I know that the summer of 2010 is going to be one of the best summers of my life. I can only thank God for me getting closer to him in this past years, and for him opening my eyes to the achievements I can make through him. I mean can you blame me for wanting to get started so badly?

Life is funny

Life is funny. It just is. I don't know how to fully explain it really, but God definitely acts in mysterious ways. I guess you could say that I always knew that, and sometimes experienced it, but how I quickly forget. Take my relationships and school for example. Although I am almost done with school, I sit back and look back on everything and realize how everything has come together so perfectly. It wasn't necessarily the best or easiest way, but look how everything turned out! I honestly believe that if I didn't go through the rough times, I might now have ever learned from my experiences and mistakes, and then I wouldn't be here. I am so happy and motivated (as much as possible considering my senior-itis) with where I am in my life right now, that I can't think of any reason not to be happy.

I lost my job yesterday, and yes it was not a good way to go out, but you know what? I hated that job and it gave me so much stress anyway, I'm probably better without it. Besides who wouldn't want to work at a convenience store where the toothless man calls you "purdy"! It doesn't get any better then that.

My true friends and closer then ever before. I love that, and I love my friends! No matter that most of my friends are making life plans, getting into serious relationships, going after their career, or going to grad school, or even already in a good career, it makes me happy to know that each and everyone of them really truly do care about me in every sense.

God is great. Beer is Good. And people are crazy....and I'm just loving it.

Oh and on top of that I'm closer then I have ever been to having ABs...sooo ready to run this 1/2 marathon can't wait!!

so where does that leave me? I'm graduating in June...I have a couple choices on the table and for once I think I'm going to lean back and take my time...see what God tells my heart what to do.

1. Move back to Cbus to be closer to my family...besides I'm going to be an auntie X 6 in May :)

2. Stay in Cinci because I absolutely love it here. I can always visit Cbus on the weekends :)

3. Move. Wherever the wind takes me...then again I have the rest of my life for that!

soooo as a conclusion. I'm happy. happy happy happy. And I only have God, and my bestest friends and fam to thank for that :)